Sunday 17 May 2015


 ‘It is quite an undertaking to start loving somebody. You have to have energy, generosity, blindness. There is even a moment right at the start where you have to jump across an abyss; if you think about it, you don’t do it.’
Jean Paul Sartre, Nausea (1938)

I will remember the kisses
our lips raw with love
and how you gave me
everything you had
and how I
offered you what was left of
 me
Charles Bukowski, ‘Raw With Love’ in What Matters Most Is How Well You Walk Through The Fire (1999)

‘The indifference of this Decembral littoral suits my forlorn mood for I am a sad woman by nature, no doubt about that; how unhappy I should be in a happy world!’
Angela Carter, ‘The Smile of Winter’ in Burning Your Boats: Collected Stories (1995)



Take Me Home Again
‘So, Albert, how about it, then? Me and you tomorrow night?’
 ‘Sorry?’
‘You’ve not listened to a bloody word I’ve said, have you? Stop staring at her.’
 ‘Eh? She has a name, you know.’
‘Well, I’ve heard stories about her.’
‘About Lola?’
‘She disappears, sometimes. Once, she went missing for a month. Nobody knew where she went. Even the police couldn’t find her. Then one day out of the blue she came back and her aunty demanded to know why she wasn’t dressed in black.’
‘Eh?’
‘Well, her father had died and everyone was getting ready to go to his funeral. She was really close to her father as well and…’
‘Oh, that’s rotten, Scabby. Why the hell have you told me that? It’s none of my business. Or yours.’
     Albert’s head must have turned towards Lola at least twelve times that evening. She was sitting at the Colonel’s table, smoking a cigarette. But it was the way she did it, holding the white tube as if it were a fine watercolour brush dipped in grey, painting the inside of an ashtray. Then a light tap with a painted nail and back to those lips. The Colonel was staring at her too whilst fiddling with his salt and pepper straw moustache. Lola was gesticulating and whispering to her friend, Gretel. They laughed hard. Gretel held her stomach and lurched forward, unable to stop her laughter. But at least she stopped at some point. Lola carried on laughing and laughing and her eyes were streaming and her mascara was running down her face so much that Gretel had to unclasp her handbag and draw out a crisp pressed cotton handkerchief with a G on it, just like Albert’s dear mam used to have, but with a J on it for Joan, her pride and joy, the one and only present she received from her well to do sister Ethel, who married that American, and she had exactly seven J’s, one for each day of the week, which she hung on the washing line on a Wednesday, making sure each J was on the bottom right hand corner, because what would the neighbours say, our Albert? then Gretel passed the handkerchief to Lola who screwed it up to make a pointy bit like a Johnson’s cotton bud and dabbed the corner of her eyes. Then she stopped. Mouth open. Albert tried to remember a time when he had laughed the hardest. Maybe when Scabby did an impression of the Colonel patting his imaginary Santa belly whilst the Colonel looked on from behind the canteen door? Or that Sunday afternoon when he and his mam were listening to Victor Borge on the crackling wireless? No, no, it had to be when Scabby first had his head shaved and tried to pin back his sticky out ears with chewing gum, only for one of them to ping back into the normal position during an inspection.
    Lola looked over in Albert’s direction, so he tried to catch her eye, but she quickly turned her face away. He gave her a smile anyway and continued to check his red tunic for any stains. What if they were laughing at him? Perhaps his hair was a mess, or, God forbid, something smeared on his face. Maybe that chocolate mousse they had for afters? He had to go and check in the mirror.
    Scabby Weeks was the Head of Entertainment that evening. Albert had recommended him to the Colonel as he was good a raconteur and would no doubt keep the people entertained at the Mess ball. It was a kind of payback for when Scabby looked after Albert on the voyage there from Southampton to Wuppertal barracks a few months back. Albert was convinced they were going to drown and wondered how it was possible that a ship of that size could carry all those people? (Don’t forget what happened in 1912). He thought the same about planes. How on earth could something so big actually get off the ground? It was a miracle. He was scared of heights. That’s why he couldn’t have possibly joined the Air Force. At least it was an easy decision for him. The army training was bad enough, though. Dropping him in at the deep end and making him crawl on the bottom of the swimming pool had traumatised him for life. Then he ended up on a ship that rested on so much water that there was no bottom.   
*
     The Colonel poured the red wine into a crystal glass and passed it to Lola, who then passed it to Gretel. On pouring the second glass, the Colonel sneezed, knocked the glass over and wine spilled all over the white tablecloth and onto the floor. Lola stood up and used Gretel’s handkerchief to mop it up. The Colonel held up his palm.
    ‘Lola.’
‘But, wine drips onto fl…’
‘Sit. Lola. Sit.’
With a click of the Colonel’s fingers, one of the waitresses came rushing over to clean up the mess. Lola sat down slowly and fiddled with the handkerchief.  
*
    Albert, all present and correct from the W.C. was standing behind a pillar watching Lola and listening in to the Colonel’s conversation. He rested his hand on the pillar. It felt cold. A few flakes of beige paint came off in his hands. His eyes drifted up the pillar to the ceiling, where dust seemed to hang in the air around the chandelier, not knowing whether to drift down or just stay there, suspended. In the corner of the ceiling, he could see the tattered remnants of an old homemade Christmas decoration made out of linked pastel paper, fastened with a dull drawing pin. His eyes slowly drifted back down the pillar, going left and right in-between the haphazard maze of beige flakes. At the bottom, the tip of the Colonel’s shoe shone like a glossy black apple. Albert thought back to all the hours he spent shining his boots. He never could get it quite right. So he used to trade his writing skills in return for a shiny boot. He was good at finding the right words to say to the folks back home. The Colonel coughed.
    ‘So, Lola and Gretchen, or Gretel, is it? Whatever. We will be leaving a bit earlier this evening as The Colonel has a little champagne soiree going on and you two lucky ladies are part of the select few. We leave at ten. On the dot.’  
     Lola rolled her eyes at Gretel.
    ‘Well, we go back by eleven thirty. They lock door. Rules of hostel.’
*
    Scabby had promised Albert a slot that evening. He would sing his signature song that he whistled wherever he went. Scabby was sick of it. Whistle something else, for God’s sake, Albert, he would say. So he would purse his lips and out came Stardust; ‘sometimes I wonder why I spend the lonely night, dreaming of a song, the melody haunts my reverie and I am once again with you.’ So Scabby would shake his head, as he had heard that one so many times too that he could whistle it himself, including Albert’s own accents and emphases.
    ‘What else do you know about her?’
    ‘Lola? She’s the Colonel’s housekeeper.’
    ‘Well, yes, I know that! I want to know where she lives.’
 ‘How am I supposed to know that? Jesus. You keep going on and on about her, Albert. Look, she lives in the ladies’ hostel about two miles away from the barracks. The high, grey affair with tiny windows, looks a bit like the prison in Yorkshire, but different. Now, stop asking me about her, will you?’
   ‘Ah, remember the greasy spoon on Earle’s street, opposite the prison?’
    ‘Mmm. They did a good cuppa, there.’
    Albert and Scabby looked at each other, not saying anything.

    The orchestra prepared for the last act. The prim pianist repositioned himself on the stool and flexed his fingers. The man on the double bass looked worried as he slid his finger down the curve of the dark wood and brushed off a stray speck of dust, which, heavens above, might have interfered with his performance. Scabby brushed past him and accidentally knocked his elbow, apologising as he took his position on the stage.
    ‘And now, ladies and gentlemen’ he said, clearing his throat, ‘may I introduce you to an old friend of mine, Regimental Sergeant Major Albert Stockton. Please put your hands together.’
    Oh, no, they were all staring at Albert. What if he forgot the words? Or what if people walked out because he wasn’t a great singer, like Nat King Cole or anyone. Who was he kidding? One, two and breathe; ‘Take me home again, Kathleen…’ you can do it you can do it you can do it you can…‘across the ocean wild and wide…
    When he got settled into the song, Albert tried to catch sight of the Colonel’s table in-between the bobbing heads of the dancing couples. It was no use, there were too many people. Was Lola dancing, then? If so, who with? What time was it? Was it ten yet? …‘I always feel when you are near, that life holds nothing, dear, but you…’ He did it. The song was over. Albert walked back to his table to whistles and applause, but found that Lola had already left.  
*
    The next morning Scabby came into the canteen with a newspaper under his arm, a pack of coffin nails and a German/English dictionary. He sat opposite Albert, who was buttering some burnt toast and reaching into all four corners with the black speckled yellow paste, just how Scabby liked it. Albert tried to have a peek over the top of the newspaper, but Scabby held it up even higher so Albert couldn’t see his face. Albert told him that a plate of toast was in front of him. A nail bitten hand appeared from under the newspaper, fumbled for a slice and retracted, scraping off some of the butter on the bottom of the page and turning it translucent. Scabby’s chomping was getting louder as Albert watched the black crumbs fall onto his lap.
    ‘Bloody hell. You wouldn’t believe it! An elephant.’
    ‘What?’
    ‘I’ll let you read it yourself. Maybe. In about half an hour.’
    Albert scraped his chair back and walked over to stand behind him. Scabby closed the newspaper, so Albert snatched it out of his hands. That’s what he was on about. The travelling Althoff circus arrived in Wuppertal with a four year old elephant called Tuffi. They did a publicity stunt (well, that’s what Scabby’s dictionary said it was) and made Tuffi travel on the suspended railway, the Schwebebahn. She didn’t like it in the carriage and she panicked, broke the window and fell twenty feet into the river.
    ‘A miracle. That’s it, Scabby. That’s what I’ll do.’
    ‘What are you talking about?
    ‘The travelling circus. I’ll ask Lola to go with me tonight.’
    ‘The Big Top is for kids. Besides, you’ve never even spoken to her, you daft ‘apeth.’   
    ‘So?’
    ‘Have you forgotten? We were supposed to be going to that posh community hall tonight for that violin thingy. Ah, come on, Albert, we only get one evening off a week, well, apart from last night, which was an exception and…’
    ‘Exactly.’
    Scabby looked at Albert for what seemed like several minutes and then he flapped the newspaper open and buried his face in a black maze of unfamiliar words.
*
    That evening Albert walked towards the town. The irregular sound of the rain hitting the pavement was like his own heartbeat, fast, loud, a teasing trickle and then so God damn hard that it scared him. He could see several black umbrellas protecting figures in the distance by the iron gates. A small dog shook his body and cowered in the dry spot between two people who were in conversation. One figure rested its back on the iron gates and splashed one foot and then the other into a puddle. The droplets rolled off the immaculate pink patent shoes. Must have been pre war.
    ‘Lola?’
     She revealed her face from behind her umbrella, nodded, but didn’t make eye contact.
    ‘Thank you for remembering me, Lola, and, er, meeting up in this ghastly weather.’
    She tried to hold the hooked stem of her umbrella underneath her arm so that she could adjust her silk scarf. Albert grabbed hold of her umbrella, so Lola tied a fresh bow and then pressed in between each finger of her thin leather gloves. She then tried to straighten her cameo brooch, which was fastened to her transparent rain mac, but it fell back to the left, as if the carved lady wanted to gently rest her head. Albert thrust his elbow out and formed a hole for Lola’s elegant arm. She hesitated, then obliged.
   ‘Tell me a bit about yourself, Lola.’
    ‘….My father bred dachshunds.’
    ‘Sausage dogs?’
    ‘Sausage? Wurst?’
    ‘The shape of them. Like a sausage.’
     Lola nodded.
     ‘My father worked down the pit. The pit, I mean down a coal mine. He used to take a whole onion with him for his lunch. Mam said we couldn’t afford anything else. He used to peel the brown paper skin off with his teeth and then take a bite, like it were a Granny Smith, a, er, type of apple, and sometimes the onion were that strong that it made him cry and he would come home with a streaky face. It took him at least an hour to wash all the soot off in the tin bath before he could have his tea, I mean his dinner. He was such a…’
    ‘I’m thirsty.’
    ‘Right, well, let’s, erm, look, can you see the smaller tent over on the right? Perhaps we can get a drink from there.’
    As they entered, there was a faint smell of damp clothes. Albert was transported back to when his mam used to dry carbolic soaped clothes by the open fire. My, how things have changed since then.
    ‘Gluwein, Lola?’
    ‘No. I drinked little bit last night. Doctor say careful, because, barbiturates for my manic depression.’
    ‘No need to explain, Lola. …so…how was your evening at the Colonel’s house?’
    ‘How you know?’
    ‘Oh, I just overheard him talking, that’s all.’
    ‘It was not very good. He is so, selbst wichtigenur, mmm, how you say in Englisch?’ she said, sticking her nose in the air.
    ‘Self important? You don’t say.’
    ‘I just said.’
    ‘Haha, no, it doesn’t matter Lola, it’s an English expression.’

    They sat on the first tier in the Big Top. This was supposed to be the place where they made people happy. The rain pelted hard onto the tent. The sound was suddenly masked by a loud blast of up tempo music. A clown appeared. Around his neck was a placard: Grobianus. A forced red smile was outlined in white paint. His stripy pantaloons were like fat sticks of seaside rock and his puffball sleeves glittered with gaudy green spots like polished mould. He was laughing so much that it infected some of the audience, like a pox. Albert felt obliged to laugh, but as he looked at poker faced Lola, he decided against it. The clown clapped his hands and a white horse with a red plume of feathers daintily trotted towards him from behind the curtain. The clown mounted the horse, backwards. The music trailed off, as if someone had switched off a gramophone and the last notes were forcing themselves out, desperately wanting to be heard. On the back of the clown’s head, embedded in his red wig, sat a singular black teardrop. Sobbing, Grobianus contorted his arms backwards to dry his fake tear as the horse walked around the edge of the circle.
    ‘The horse is in very good condition. Even tail is clean. Where was he throughout the war, Albert?’
    ‘The war? Erm. America? I, I don’t know, Lola.’
    ‘….’
     The clown disappeared and was replaced by the black haired Bauchredner, who carried a battered suitcase. He sat on a wooden stool and put the suitcase on his lap. The whole tent was silent. A muttering sound was coming from the suitcase. The Bauchredner opened the clasp, stuck his hand in and out popped a dummy of an old man, with a white beard. Slowly, the dummy looked up at him and made the motion of spitting in his master’s face.
    ‘Hey. Was hast du getan?’
    The dummy shrugged its shoulders.
    ‘Sind sie unzufreiden heute? the Bauchredner asked, making an exaggerated frown.
    The dummy nodded.
    ‘Warum?’
     The dummy shrugged its shoulders.
    The Bauchredner fumbled in his suitcase and brought out a large picture book. With a wide smile and maniacal eyes, he opened the book and pointed to a picture of a sun. The dummy shrugged its shoulders. Then, open mouthed and eyebrows raised, he pointed to a picture of a gaily wrapped present adorned with yellow ribbons. The dummy sat just there and ignored him. Then the Bauchredner smacked the dummy across the head and its white hair became dishevelled.
    ‘Hey. Idiot’ shouted the dummy.
     The audience laughed. Lola nodded her head, as if in agreement. Albert didn’t understand German, only certain words, but he gathered the gist of it; the dummy was unhappy and didn’t know why. Albert watched Lola from the corner of his eyes. Left leg over right. Right leg over left. Bottom pushed back on the seat. Head darting around the tent. Finding nothing of appeal, she gazed at Albert’s hands. It was as if she was counting how many freckles he had. Then all of a sudden, Lola was hysterical. Just like at the Mess ball. A man in front of them turned around. Albert tried to stare him out. The man shifted his gaze back to Lola and raised his eyebrow. Her laughter attracted more and more attention from the audience, who smiled in sympathetic idiocy. The Bauchredner snarled at the dummy. No reaction. So he bit the dummy’s head, getting white hair between his teeth, which he spat out in stages. The dummy ripped open the zip in his chest, pulled out a knitted heart and flung it onto the floor. The Bauchredner got up from his stool, letting the dummy dangle from his arm like a corpse and threw the heart into the audience, who tried to compete with each other on who could throw it the highest. Albert and Lola were transfixed by the heart going up and over people’s heads, like a red kite dancing on a stormy day. He reached for her hand. It was warm and clammy. He felt the strength in her grip as her laughter escalated even more. There was a tiny cluster of bubbles forming in the corners of her mouth, so he automatically licked his own lips. Then one man threw the heart back into the sandy circle. The Bauchredner used the suitcase as a coffin and laid the dummy to rest, crossing his paint chipped hands and closing his plastic eyes. He picked up the heart, threw it up in the air, deliberately failed to catch it and then walked off, swinging the coffin.
    ‘Idiot,’ said the dead dummy.
     As Lola’s laughter began to die down, Albert still had the feeling that they were being watched. He looked behind him, but all the faces were anticipating the next act. Felinnia, the Trapezkünstler Extraordinarius ran into the centre and nearly tripped over, but Albert guessed that it was made to look as if it was part of the act, like a disappointed gymnast jumping off a beam and putting one foot out to stop them from falling over. Dressed as a sleek cat with a black satin leotard and a long tail, her six inch false lashes fluttered to the beat of the violin music. Fellinia climbed up the rope ladder, which swung from side to side like a pendulum on a grandfather clock. She forced her body weight onto the wire for one, two, three, and did a triple somersault. Albert closed his eyes, unable to look. Lola touched his shoulder, so Albert opened one eye and looked at her, but still she wouldn’t make eye contact. Then something small scuttled across the sand. Then another. And another. Twenty clockwork rats with whiskers, wormy ridged tails and black beady eyes. One came up close to the barrier. Lola stood up and rushed for the exit.
    Her umbrella was left on the floor next to her seat, so Albert grabbed it and followed her. He stumbled over boots, brollies, shoes and handbags, apologising as he passed the long line of strangers. The first port of call had to be the refreshment tent. But there was just one woman there, filing her nails. Albert was taken aback when she looked up, as her left eye was made from green glass and the fake black pupil pointed up in a different direction.
    ‘Excuse me, but has anyone been in here since the circus started this evening?’
    ‘Es tut mir leid, ich spreche kein Englisch.’
    ‘…Much obliged.’
     Albert sighed and listened to the rain. He wondered what he had done wrong. Why did she leave? He did waffle on a bit. There again, sometimes he could be a bit quiet. Maybe she didn’t like that. He was only being quiet because he wanted her to enjoy the show.
     Albert opened Lola’s umbrella and braved the rain. As the iron gates came into view, someone tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around.
    ‘Lola? Oh.’
    ‘Oh? Is that how you greet your old pal?’
    ‘Scabby, what are you doing here? I thought you didn’t want to miss that violin concert?’
    ‘I can change my mind, can’t I?’
    ‘You don’t even like the circus. It’s for kids, remember?’
    ‘Well, what else was I supposed to do? Hey, you never got to see Tuffi, after all, did you? Haha. You’ve wasted your mon…’
    ‘Wait a minute. Have you been spying on me?’
  ‘I needed to look out for you. As usual. Eh, I told you she goes missing, though, didn’t I? She’s crackers, Albert.’
    ‘Lola, you mean. Well, yes, perhaps you’re right. But what of it, Scabby? What of it?’
    And for once, Scabby was speechless. Without looking behind him, Albert tried to hurry across the field, but the mud squelched under his boots, making it difficult for him to get a grip.

    Opposite the iron gates, Albert saw a figure sitting in the tiny bus shelter. A thin line of ghostly grey smoke drifted up to the concrete roof and waited.
    ‘Is it something I said? Or not?’
    ‘War.’
    Lola took a long drag and some ash fell onto her mac. Albert stood by the side of her and blew the ash away. As she tilted her head to take another drag, he noticed that her hair had darkened with rain-wash.
    ‘War? What do...’
    ‘….Rats. Teeth. Blood. Dead flesh rip. Humans. Pavements. Body piles.’
    ‘Ah, the toy rats at the circ…Oh, Lola. I don’t know what to say. I’ve, er, tried so hard to block it all out, like. Pretend it didn’t happen. You know. War and that.’
    Lola flicked ash onto the ground and smoothed it over with her shoe until it became invisible.
    ‘Do you know, I read a book of quotes, once? A French chap. Bruyère. Not sure if I’ve pronounced his name right, but I never forgot it. He said that we should be like children, because they have neither a past nor a future. So they enjoy the present moment. I am here for you, Lola, right now.’

     She looked into his eyes for the first time, as if expecting more reassurance. And they sat there, nestled next to each other. They were there for so long that they were oblivious to the noisy circus revellers that walked past, clutching half deflated elephant shaped balloons, some arrogantly blowing into shabby plastic whistles pretending to be ringmasters, one was talking to his hand, which was held up in the shape of a yapping mouth and another was viciously biting the enlarged ear off a gingerbread clown. And for the first time in a long while, he felt at home again. And for the first time, he felt peace, and sensed at one point, that Lola felt it too. He began to whistle, softly. 

Daddy xxx

Fifteen Christmasses without you
Fifteen birthdays

Fifteen easters, summers, springs
Fifteen anniversaries

Fifteen things I want to tell you
My graduation
You wouldn’t believe it, Daddy

Remember in the sunny garden
When you held Pankhurst’s book
Deciphering the dryness
Helping with the history project


Fifteen things I want to tell you……..
Strange Tinsel

Silver frost on barbed wire, strange tinsel, sparkled and winked
Like a wish
Is this real?
This magic?
Said the boy from Stroud
Who stood in earth’s hole
And stared at a star
To meet his mother’s eyesight

there
Do I Have To?
From heavenly comfort in duck down to….
The gate clicks
The lock flicks
The engine purrs
Hunger stirs
Winding lanes
Aches and pains
Traffic lights
Hole in tights
Sip of tea
Car park fee
The lock flicks
The gate clicks


Lies, Lies, Lies, Yeah!

Everyone is equal, and
Materialism matters, and
An antique clock is better than bonding with your brother, although
Morello cherries are repulsive 
Dirty nails are attractive
Alcohol is useless, and
Books are unnecessary
And people do not annoy you
At all
Do they?
Mmm?

Well?
The man with two pipEs

 So I walks down town with ma two long pips
 Ma limbs do throb and aroma is rip’
 Ma bows and grins to a maid walking past
 But sticks ma nos’ in the air aghast
 At all th’folk  who look and laugh
 at ma pips, wher’ smok’ is ris’n up,
 what is wrong with havin’ two old pips
 hangin’ out of my old wrinkl’d lips?


Purgatorio XXV The Poison of Venus
Guide me, Virgil
Past the rotted chasm
Throw me on my dirty knees
And drag me
Now
the sun has left the circle of midday

Let me hang upside down
from the mouldy stairwell
and watch his thirsty veins shrivel
as his flesh separates from his soul
virum non cognosco
sing it so softly, Gabriel
so his ears melt

so I can make loud my lechery 
Tube Aversion
Avert staring into centre of
blue, green and grey orbs
avoid
standing underneath sandaled man’s hairy armpit
avert
squinting at someone’s crumpled metro
avoid
treading on exposed toes
avoid and avert

any human interaction
Get Yo Ass Outta Bed
Flick left eyelash up
Squint at father time
Lever head from creased pillow
Swivel legs clockwise to carpet
Stumble to echo room
Flick switch of illuminating whistle
Listen to trickling stream of transparency

Hit cup
Show me the Ochre

Take my pale hand,
Leave the loneliness of your room
Come, let’s walk
Feel
Feel the veil
Lift
After the ochre harvest
as a smile hovers from ages past
On a floating bone orb

You shield your eyes, yet
Do not be astonished as
Beatrice invites you to ascend
look
look to the crystal light
in the seventh splendour
La gloriosa

See a familiar finger point
To a black door
Of your future
Open, open, open it, can’t open it
Show me, show me the way, show me who to love, and where to go

Sacred
Together again for one night a year
to toast sweet mortality over warm mead
At last
In the Otherworld

Let me stay






I’ve gone a bit Pam Ayres..apologies in advance J

Ahem:

I Wish, and All That

I wish I had a nicer house
Where I could put me things
Me thimbles, cherished teddies
And all me antique rings

I wish I had a swimming pool
Instead of me back yard
So I could wear me two piece
Me husband would be hard

I wish I had a better face
So men would look and lust
And while I’m thinking of it
I’d like a fuller bust

I wish I had a better brain
So I could sort out stuff
And come to some solution
Of things that are so tough

Like people out of work, you know
the ones that come for tea
they’d look like streaks of piss, you know
if it were not for me





Hellelil and Hildebrand


On the twelfth step of the turret stair
Hellelil stood in the shadow
of Hildebrand’s high frame;
his carved sword,
glinted from the thin shaft of the autumn orb

and yearned for forbidden blood 
As the Night Waned

He had seen them on the ship
An overwhelming desire
To help
To be admired

Fragments of gaiety
Tentatively,
He brought them wine, with pleasure
Falling in with his own plot
Drinking
To sustain the illusion

A windfall from heaven
He withdrew from them
As the night waned

And the train rocked
Effervescent  

On a lake
Drifting on a dark wooden boat
With a full bag of worries by my feet
I listen to the world
To the birds
To the trees
And the leaves, gently brushing the wind
Like a lover

And I lift each worry
And splash it into the lake
And they dissolve
Like fizz
In a glass
Effervescent and alive
Happinesssssss


Thus With a Kiss, I Die
You’ll never know
My tale of woe
Romeo.
You see
Although
I love you so, though
a plague between our houses grow, yet
Star cross’d sweet sorrow parting, must
Til the morrow, bud of love
My woe?
I have several Romeos

On the go